This is a stolen mantra. I’ve recently completed a thirty day yoga challenge on YouTube with Yoga with Adriene. It took me more than thirty days to complete thanks to Leeds and a lazy holiday but it was so nice I started it again. After not being able to handle any exercise for so long I am hopeful that this might be some kind of answer. Anyway, I digress, the mantra.Watch Full Movie Online Streaming Online and Download
So Adriene goes for this idea, find what feels good, in her yoga. Forget trying to look all fancy or trying to task master your way through the session, do what feels right, really learn to listen to your body. It’s something I need to learn, and not just in yoga.
I’ve realised over the course of this summer how I approach everything from the task master point of view. Even the stuff I want to do like writing. It’s become another source of bloody stress. Makes no sense. Why do we do that to ourselves? I start my day in knots because I feel like I have a big long list of things I HAVE to do. But it’s all bollocks. Breathing, that’s pretty much it at the end of the day. I could get through a whole day just doing that and be fine.
This week I have done a lot of breathing and not much else. I caught up on TV series that I like (Once Upon A Time – fairy tale for adults basically although my four year old daughter is also a fan). I never watch TV, I don’t feel like I have time. This week I just decided there was time for doing the things that feel lazy and unproductive and indulgent like watching crap TV. I didn’t read much, I didn’t write much. I slept late. Stayed up late. Other things I don’t do. And it’s ok, it’s allowed as long as it feels good.
And that is the trick. Because at some point it won’t feel good to just do that and then doing other things that feel more productive will feel good. And that’s what I want. I want writing to feel good again. Not like a chore, or the heavy exercise in being wrong about everything it seems to have become, I just want it to feel good, like it did before. A quiet time of connection. And I don’t think I even care if I write anything publishable again as long as I can get back to that connected place, if I can just write what feels right and urgent and necessary to me.
So I wonder what it would look like if we all did this. Just really listened to our bodies and our spirits and our emotions and found what actually felt good and did that. Maybe it would be chaos but I like to think it wouldn’t. I think there is room for everyone to feel good and for their to be permission for the things that we really want. Why not? Maybe it’s just what we need. It’s worth a wee play with surely? Find what feels good, I’m pretty sure it won’t hurt you, it might even be nice.