The Reset Button

My son is crying and it’s my fault.  He is crying because his minecraft world had been frozen up by some strange xbox glitch.  He is crying because I thought the best way to save the situation was to press the reset button.  He is crying because, while pressing the reset button did fix the glitch, all his work disappeared. He is crying because although I have given him extra time to remake his world he no longer feels like building it.  Reset buttons are good but there can be a price to pay.покраска металлических поверхностейПолынь

I watched a TED talk the other day on taking a daily ten minutes of silence.  It’s not the first time I have watched it but obviously I didn’t bother to to do it last time.  This time I know I need to.  All week I have been experimenting with what I call 10, 10, 10.  Three ten minute slots of silence – one first thing, one midday and one before sleep.  I called it 10, 10, 10 partly just because I like to give things a name but also because I had a fabulous director once who, when he liked something you did, would say it was 10, 10, 10.  So far I have learned:

It is a much better way to start/end the day than looking at bloody facebook which I find stressful and addictive in a bad way.Watch movie online Rings (2017)

Making a change like this is hard.  I hope I can stick to it. I am afraid I won’t.

Flexibility is important if it’s not to become a big massive source of stress.  If my daughter wakes up at the same time of me, as she often does, then so be it.  It can all wait.  If it feels lighter to do it later then I do it later.

It’s like a little reset button in my day.  I have to stop, stand back, be silent and still.  For ten minutes I power down.

Sometimes things get lost.  Often these are good things. Like the hours of me trying to think my life better.  If this were possible I would have done it by now.  But sometimes I lose the layer of protection I have in place, I have to stop and see that deep down I am really quite afraid.  That feels pretty uncomfortable. As I said before.  Reset buttons can have a price.

But I do think it’s a price worth paying.  Your other choice is just to let everything run and run and run until eventually the screen freezes or glitches or just blacks out.  You wouldn’t leave your computer on 24/7 and expect it to still run well, and yet often we ask ourselves to do exactly that.

In the house I’ve been busy resetting too.  Every year I have a resolution to declutter and every year I don’t quite manage to do it.  This year I am on a mission.  My house creates stress, stress is the enemy.  Less stuff equals less stress.  So it’s all going, as much as I can.  Including things that I hang onto for sentimental reasons, old notebooks, old diaries, old keepsakes.  All of it – going.  I have found the idea of minimalism appealing for some time now, I would like to reach towards some kind of version of this.  This is mainly motivated by laziness,  the less stuff there is the less I need to tidy and clean.  That’s the dream anyway, that and a cleaner.

Finally there’s the writing.  I am busy trying to switch that thing back on after a very long reset.  This week I wrote for the first time in ages.  It was awful in a good way by which I mean I managed to sit down and write but what I wrote was just drivel.  That’s ok, I can’t expect to just start running again after all this time.  I’m just coming back to life.  By day three I managed to write something that looked like it could be something.  If I keep going the whole system should reboot eventually.

So 10, 10, 10.  Or even 1, 1, 1.  It would be enough.  A minute to be still, quiet, to power down and disconnect.  On that note I am switching off for ten minutes now, I might lose a few buildings but I’ll have a faster connection when I return.

One thought on “The Reset Button

  1. I love this post, and the idea of pressing ‘reset’ three times a day instead of one… And pleased to hear you’re back writing! Hope your year has started well x

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